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I've been to plenty of funerals. Some of them have been pretty tragic and I've been heartbroken for the people I love, but I've never really been emotionally devastated by someone's death. I'm fortunate in that respect.

This week two people I know died within two days of each other. One death was a semi-surprise, and I wasn't as close to that particular person as I am to other members of their family. That doesn't mean it isn't a horrible situation - just that I don't feel the intense loss associated with mourning a loved one.

The other death was totally unexpected, and has been harder for me to process. Jeff counseled my family and me through everything from my parents' divorce to personal obstacles I faced through middle school, high school and college. He taught me how to maintain emotional strength and helped shape the way I approach challenges and make life choices.

I like to think you can read blogs from the great beyond, so Jeff - thank you. I may have been pretty lost without your honesty, dedication, guidance and support.

Grief - though mild for me in this situation - feels like my heart is too full and too empty all at once. It's extremely complex and confusing. I hope it passes soon, but I know I have to let it run its course. Luckily I have fantastic support system in my family and friends (a life necessity that Jeff taught me about).

If you have a few bucks to spare, please consider donating to the Batten Disease Support & Research Association or the National CASA Association. These organizations were important to Maddie and Jeff.